Breakups suck.

And this is just terrible. I feel like I should be saying something instead of just looking upset and nodding silently. Something to make you feel better. Anything.

"I'm here for you..."

"It had to be done."

"You're a happy little waffle...."

Or at least say something to express my worries for you. But the words fail me. Because they are just words are they not? Words that can only express my feelings. They neither save or mend. They hang in the air, hoping to make you feel better - where music does so much of a better job. Maybe silence is what is needed. Maybe if i could hug you in silence you'd know just how sorry I am. Sorry about something I did not cause and cannot fix but am sorry about just the same.

And at times like these I wish more than ever that you could be here. I badly need a hug. I need you next to me to tell me that things with us are different - that we will not come to this. That we will be ok.

Tonight.
Tonight it is not I that is left crying in the dark. It's another person, other people, a stranger, a person close to my heart, far away and next to me. But if she has nothing to do with me, why do I feel like I've just escaped a burning building while leaving her inside?

I'm sorry my advice made it suck for her. But it was fair and unbiased and Dom acted in her best interest. I'm not sorry for that. After all, there's always a lesson to be learnt at times like this, isn't there?
Shit happens and life goes on.
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