1:37 AM, Friday, December 22, 2006
I have to confess that I'm terribly, terribly afraid.
That I'm trapped in that place.
And I'm running in circles.
I hear the blood pounding in my ears like a drum, and I can no longer think.
And I don't know what to do, what to say or how to save myself.
And maybe I'll sit there- frozen, staring into empty space, thinking nothing.
And then I'll ask you what's on your mind.
So that your thoughts might distract me even for a moment.
World is what you swim in, or dance, it is simple.We are in our element but we are not free.Outside this world you cannot breath for long.The other has my shape. The other's movement forms my thoughts. And also mine. There is a manand there are hoops. There is a constant flowing guilt.We have found no truth in these waters,no explanations tremble on our flesh.We were blessed and now we are not blessed.After traveling such space for days we beganto translate. It was the same space. It isthe same space always and above it is the man.And now we are no longer blessed, for the worldwill not deepen to dream in. The other knows and out of love reflects me for myself.We see our silver skin flash by like memoryof somewhere else. There is a coloured ballwe have to balance till the man disappears.The moon has disappeared. We circle well-known grovesof water on a single note. Music of loss foreverfrom the other's heart which turns my own to stone.There is a plastic toy. There is no hope. We sinkto the limits of this pool until the whistle blows.There is a man and our mind knows we will die here.Dolphins
Carol Ann Duffy
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