I'm just getting too bloody tired. Tired of ranting and raving about things that no one really cares about. Tired of screaming injustices that just aren't going to change. Just sick and tired.

I received a whole lot of mail from the universities in the UK who had sent it to the old address.
Just leafing through their neatly typed up and carefully composed letters made me feel like crying.
Crying because of all the effort that had been wasted in doing it.
When I watch those around me in school putting in so much effort, like fibbus, monobrowus, Dit an worst of all the inquisitivus, just makes me want to sweat, cry and breakdown.
Just listening and watching them makes me so damn tired, I fight to hold back the tears of exhaustion. Without realizing my pains, they just carry on.
It's like they've been drinking gasoline.

Everything just seems so pointless now, like everything has lost its value - myself included.
All this effort - the blood, sweat and the tears, wasted and completely for nothing. For no greater plan, for no better purpose.
And yet, the endless struggle continues, the wasted efforts, the emotional strain, the endless thinking of "the better, the better and the better".
For what exactly?

I feel drained and they're still sucking me dry.
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